through charm-bracelet songs,

find the land of the torn,

the beings of darkness,

lost, love-lorn.

find defiance, lost faith,

tear through in mad haste.

love the gypsy-carried child,

and watch starlight go waste…

Perhaps this too, is real.

Maybe it is hard to believe

That these cold, foggy mornings

Of self-doubt and fear,

Really exist.

Maybe it is hard to hold on

To slippery hands

With slippery hands.

Mute voices of silence surround

Your screaming deaf echoes

And your mind whirls.

You cannot escape from

The web of deceit

That left you frozen

And still,

Like dewfall, lost

On a stormy night.

Perhaps, this shall never pass;

Maybe because this too, is real.

Moving

I have gone back to the packing up and moving. It's just as bad, because I didn't really want to move. To make up for it is the fact that the new place seems very nice and the new roommate, very nice too. Let's see how that works out. I'm looking forward to not ever having to live alone again (provided the one I live with is fun). Sigh... my room is a mess, I have wayyyy too much stuff than I should. What to do... such is life.

If I Write Them Words Down...

If I write them words down

Will you read them again and again?

Will the same birds fly to the same homes?

Will the same flowers bloom?

Will the same sobs haunt us?

The same tears will not fall,

Nor the same leaves.

The same waves, they shan’t break,

The same brushstroke…

If I say the same things over and over and over

Will you hold them real?

Like true hands in a glove…

Warm… like love.

The same love hurts

Like the one sun that rises,

Sets.

If I say the same thing over and over and over

Will it come true,

Like you?

Lavender Lotus

On a tremor-clad day

Of acid flashbacks,

You hear velvet footsteps

Walking down violet halls.

You follow the smell

And find rose-strewn trails,

That lead from

Room to room

And begin when they stop.

You taste laced peppermint

And lilac dreams

When you follow the sounds

And they lead you to you,

Turning into strawberry echoes.

As silver  raindrops paint

Your window panes moist

And damp mushrooms swell,

Your shadow snails up to you

From dark blue alleyways of pain...

The Months ~ Linda Pastan

 January

Contorted by wind,

mere armatures for ice or snow,

the trees resolve
to endure for now,

they will leaf out in April.
And I must be as patient
as the trees—
a winter resolution

I break all over again,
as the cold presses
its sharp blade
against my throat.

February

After endless
hibernation
on the windowsill,

the orchid blooms—

embroidered purple stitches
up and down
a slender stem.
Outside, snow

melts midair
to rain.
Abbreviated month.
Every kind of weather.

March

When the Earl King came

to steal away the child
in Goethe’s poem, the father said
don’t be afraid,

it’s just the wind. . .

As if it weren’t the wind

that blows away the tender

fragments of this world—

leftover leaves in the corners

of the garden, a Lenten Rose

that thought it safe

to bloom so early.

April

In the pastel blur

of the garden,

the cherry

and redbud

shake rain

from their delicate

shoulders, as petals

of pink

dogwood

wash down the ditches

in dreamlike

rivers of color.

May

May apple, daffodil,

hyacinth, lily,

and by the front

porch steps

every billowing

shade of purple

and lavender lilac,

my mother’s favorite flower,

sweet breath drifting through

the open windows:

perfume of memory—conduit

of spring.

June

The June bug

on the screen door

whirs like a small,

ugly machine,

and a chorus of frogs

and crickets drones like Musak

at all the windows.

What we don’t quite see

comforts us.

Blink of lightning, grumble

of thunder—just the heat

clearing its throat.

July

Tonight the fireflies

light their brief
candles
in all the trees

of summer—
color of moonflakes,
color of fluorescent
lace

where the ocean drags
its torn hem
over the dark
sand.

August

Barefoot
and sun-dazed,
I bite into this ripe peach
of a month,

gathering children
into my arms
in all their sandy
glory,

heaping
my table each night

with nothing

but corn and tomatoes.

September

Their summer romance

over, the lovers
still cling
to each other

the way the green
leaves cling
to their trees
in the strange heat

of September, as if
this time
there will be
no autumn.

October

How suddenly
the woods
have turned
again. I feel

like Daphne, standing
with my arms
outstretched
to the season,

overtaken
by color, crowned
with the hammered gold
of leaves.

November

These anonymous

leaves, their wet
bodies pressed
against the window

or falling past—
I count them
in my sleep,
absolving gravity,

absolving even death
who knows as I do
the imperatives
of the season.

December

The white dove of winter
sheds its first
fine feathers;
they melt

as they touch
the warm ground
like notes
of a once familiar

music; the earth
shivers and
turns towards
the solstice.

Sonnets on a Tabletop

Eyes reflected in dark, shadowy pools

Glistening; like yesterday’s tears.

Pensive, stubborn, swirling like those

Dumb moths around a flame.

Dreams breaking standard roads

Building new alleyways of pain;

Like smoke from the just-lit stick,

Taking different paths every time.

Will you remember, lover,

Or will you forget?

Those questions, those words,

Those sunsets, those moons-rise?

Like yesterday, like today,

Like today, so tomorrow…